island of the gods

on the island of the gods you were always my angel so when everything had fallen apart i didn’t know where else to be not quite by your side but living in memory and every night i dive into the bali influencer pool beside the roided and the beautiful and make wishes on the two stars i tell myself are me and u and i tell myself what i read the other day that only in falling are we given wings and that ill forever cherish the wings i was gifted the wings from when i fell for u and i <3 u canggu all the talk of crypto riches on crushed up asphalt paths all the surfing and clove cigarette smoking and coldplay serenading under the stars everything blessed by canang sari coconut blessings to maintain balance between all things the good & the evil the gods & the demons all the material & all the spiritual the gym staff tell me that the incense is to carry blessings into the sky so they place tropicana slim the bali stevia in the blessings by the health food bar perfect diet offerings for the gods and i love when boys are vain and count calories obsessed with macros and terribly incredible tattoos and literally every night beach club music seeps into everything and the fireworks blast out across the sky all tropical all promise all pink all paradise and pools bright blue in perfect weather and i miss when we’d sleep right next to each other but it’s ok i have the breeze to hold me now and the black sand beaches cling so much that there’s still no chance that i’ll just slip away idk i pray and i write and talk to the sky and tryyyyy to make peace because fr so much of the time time doesn’t really feel real without u i just spend it somehow and smile but when it rains and when it rains and rains and rainsssss like it has on the island this september i come home to myself and all the smiling in the sunlight and all the craziness on warm nights has ended and im like a child and i can’t really work out why im anywhere without u but its another night and after pilates i dive in the pool and talk to my instructor about life and the latest protein ice creams and the fairy lights shine so beautiful and the scent in the air is so sweet and i know that im the luckiest girl in the world i guess